So basically I’m now in a situation where I can stay where I am now, with these feelings and unresolved shit or I can attempt to move forward, again. But an ultimatum has just been thrown at me where if I decide to do the latter I’m banned from ever talking to the person that to be frank, still pretty much has all of me. So yep. Fuck this. I don’t even understand how all of this happened. And by this I genuinely mean everything since October to now. The funny thing is, I feel like a bitch for once again choosing someone who isn’t even mine anymore over someone wanting to be mine. I don’t even understand how all this happens. Fucking EastEnders shit.